“Have a good life. Do that for me, Rose. Have a fantastic life.”
The daleks are back, the Time War is resurfaced, and the Doctor’s going to die. So what does he do? Well, he’s the Doctor, so he goes headfirst into it, but not without saving the most precious thing in his life: Rose. By the end of series 1, the Doctor knows he loves Rose, but he’s afraid of confessing it because he doesn’t know if she loves him back. His, what he thinks is his last, message to her says no more and no less than “I love you” when he tells her to have a good life. Love is nothing, if not desire for your love’s happiness.
“I thought you were dead.”
Rose is trapped, there’s a mad dalek on the loose, the Doctor’s hopeless, and Rose has to say goodbye. But by a miracle, she doesn’t die. The Doctor is dumbfounded and so, so relieved. His love is written all over his face. He loves this girl, and for the first time, someone recognizes it. Only this time, it’s the dalek, “What use are emotions if you will not save the woman you love?” For a split second, the Doctor has to imagine life without Rose and it close to destroys him. And in the next moment, he’s off to save her.
“I could save the world but lose you.”
Everything is packed into this scene. Rose lets the Doctor do whatever he needs to do, which could kill her, and she doesn’t even know what that is precisely. But she doesn’t care. She has too much faith in him to care. Rose understands the Doctor’s life, she gets that it’s not fun or easy, but that it’s difficult and full of hard choices. And it shocks him. He doesn’t understand why this beautiful girl so readily gives herself to him, and he’s too afraid to break it. Because by now, the Doctor’s in love. Not to mention the intense eyefuck that doesn’t end until Harriet Jones interrupts.
“I’m so glad I met you.”
This is it. The beginning of the end, the moment I began to ship Doctor/Rose. Besides the obvious physical attraction (you can’t deny Rose’s eye flicker down to Nine’s lips), this particular moment is beautiful because of how tender and simple it is. They think that they’re going to die, that this is it, but neither would trade places. There are no convoluted words and no goodbyes. They live in the moment and in that moment they are together, so it’s okay. They grab each others hands for strength, a trend that continues all through Rose’s reign as the Doctor’s companion. They seek assurance and security from one another. The Doctor needs Rose, and it is never clearer than in this small exchange.
the dalek, “dalek” (via my-gallifrey)
#that awkward moment when a dalek realizes the doctor is in love with rose before almost anyone else
His mind was mangled. The time vortex ripped through it, catching his thoughts on the curls of his brain like a butterfly in a net. Pain like a thousand tacks dug into his skull and he knew he had to rid the heart of the TARDIS out of himself immediately. He could feel himself burning in gold.
After the Doctor expelled the knowledge and power of whole of time and space back into the TARDIS where it belonged, he felt his body collapse. Grimacing, he nearly doubled over. He felt his regeneration coming on strong. There was no way he could possibly delay it for very long. Bending down, he picked up his precious Rose and carried her inside. He leaned upon the console that would be his deathbed, pulling the levers to set pull them into the vortex. The electricity of his regeneration was seeping through his body. He bit his lip and found the taste of strawberries still there. The Doctor didn’t want to let go of the perfect taste of Rose’s kiss quite yet, but he had no choice.
His body was exploding. Cadmium light detonated from his insides like the sun. He couldn’t scream but the pain was there.
Being born into a new body, spun into a new existence amidst golden swirls and delicate feminine gasps from his shocked companion. He could feel his skin dissolving into something younger, his hair growing, and his body thinning.
And still the taste of Rose on his lips. Still her DNA, still her being, and always her love.
The new Doctor, beget from his savoir, breathing in air he had felt in Rose’s lungs. The sweet tang of strawberries in his mouth. Something definitely more human in his soul. Something healing.
The one who had rescued his mind and his body when he was broken, when he didn’t care if he lived or died, when he was alone and reckless, was now a permanent part of him. His perfect Rose and her perfect kiss.
Rose hitched up the dimension cannon and let it sit heavily on her hip. Crossing through universes wasn’t easy on her. She shook her head and her eyes caught a twinge of blue in the corner of the street. Her breath caught. After all this time of looking for him, she couldn’t believe he was there. The TARDIS stood, illuminated, in the corner of a London street. She felt her arms and legs go numb, but she ran as fast she could, even if her limbs were telling her not to.
As she approached the blue box, she stopped, afraid. What would she say? What could she say after flying through universes to find the man you love? Rose almost laughed, thinking that was not a question she’d ever thought she’d be asking herself.
But before she could find an answer, the door swung open.
“Doctor! I found-” she stopped. A tall man with short black hair and piercing blue eyes was staring at her, bewildered. He crossed his arms, his mouth hung open in confusion. The Doctor collected himself and said in a northern accent that made Rose’s heart ache, “Now then, Rose Tyler! Care to explain this?” He crossed his arms. Across his face as a wide smile of amusement, but surely not as big as Rose’s smile.
“Oh, Doctor. I- I…” she didn’t know where to start and so she said so.
“You could start, maybe, Miss Tyler, in how exactly you’re here when I just left you back in London with that kid, Rickey?” But then his face softened, and he looked down at her with those blue eyes and said, “Unless… you come with me?”
Rose nodded, breathlessly. The Doctor smirked. “Well, as I’ll be seeing you anyways, I might as well get back to 2005 and pick you up! Bye bye, now. I have to figure out how to get you to come with me.” He nodded at her.
The Doctor began to close the TARDIS doors, when Rose exclaimed, “Doctor! Did you mention that it travels in time?”
A massive grin spread across his face as if the idea had never dawned on him. Excitably, he rushed into the TARDIS again, “See you a few, Rose Tyler!” In a flash, he and the blue time machine were gone.
“Goodbye, Doctor,” Rose smiled bitter sweetly. And with that, she charged up the dimension cannon once more, determination set in her heart.
*inspired by the head canon of awesomemccoolname.
The Doctor: [hologram, speaking towards the console] This is Emergency Programme One. Rose, now listen, this is important. If this message is activated, then it can only mean one thing: we must be in danger, and I mean fatal. I’m dead, or about to die any second with no chance of escape.
Rose Tyler: No!
The Doctor: And that’s OK, I hope it’s a good death. But I promised to look after you, and that’s what I’m doin’. The TARDIS is takin’ you home.
Rose Tyler: I won’t let you.
The Doctor: And I bet you’re fussing and moaning now, typical. But hold on, and just listen a bit more. The TARDIS can never return for me. Emergency Programme One means I’m facing an enemy that should never get their hands on this machine. So this is what you should do: let the TARDIS die. Just let this old box gather dust. No one can open it, no one will even notice it. Let it become a strange little thing standing on a street corner. And over the years, the world will move on, and the box will be buried. And if you wanna remember me, then you can do one thing. That’s all, one thing.The Doctor: [hologram turns to face Rose, and with a full voice] Have a good life. Do that for me, Rose. Have a fantastic life.
remember all the sadness & frustration | & let it go